hole in my pocket

{my response to dialogue from my friend storm regarding the past and going forward - regarding the earthquake/tsunami in northern japan and google streetview replacement of affected areas}

the abstracts of “past, present, future” can confuse. i respond heavily to culture, to nuance, to texture. because of that i can easily be swept away by “idea” by romance, by the story of something, the packaging of something. i tend to call this “marketing” of something, but it’s really about my reaction or response to the clumped consistency of a thing. so my loves or attraction are not exclusive to any tense in time or category of culture, my love is my dynamic responding to the dynamic surrounding me, or that i’m immersed in or surround by.

the past is as delicious and nutritious as the future; as the present or the imagined. and while i can be sad about something i can be equally happy about it at the same time. i can also have varying degrees or levels of every emotion occurring at the same time like a soup or like the levels on a mixing board or equalizer for a piece of music.

layers will be built again. there is constant renew. constant change, adaptation, movement, oxidation. as humans we establish new bonds, new experiences and associations. we make the uncomfortable familiar and recognizable. we establish bridges or connections to shape our environment so that it becomes comfortable. that is us in general. that is a human quality whether it is a benefit or detriment to either us or the world we live amoung.

so i am excited to see things healed, to see what is around the next corner, but i also love the corners already explored, the alleys that are well known and well worn.