balance

expression will out. for some more or less. for all, a constant. how expression manifests is seemingly infinite to human perspective. expression is what i react to. it is what i feel. i have not decided this. it is me. and this is not to say i am not responsible for my actions or being, after all i am aware of the context i exist within; the segment of time and it’s attached realities. i feel the changing relatives and temporary constants. i am sensitive to the cultural-all and existence-entire. i find it difficult to carry-on with argument because, to me, “it”(argument-if anything) is about understanding. our state of awareness and it’s abstract nature is enabled to connect through understanding; understanding and not “being understood.” so while i do not see the relevance of “agreeing” or not or in winning or losing an argument i do, however, see the goodness and relevance of understanding and learning.we each keep our own universe, in other words “reality” or understanding, perception, or point of view. the integrity of our gathering, the benefit of what each of us are (especially to the social-group-entire “humanity”) is lost when we alter our “core” to accommodate one another. this has nothing to do with natural/balanced enhancement of the core through experience or the idea of “compromise.” because compromise takes place in the topical layers of interaction with one another, all the while the core remains true to the individual’s experience, “gatherings,” or ultimately, who that individual is. i do not feel anything for self-sacrifice* when it affects the core. because ultimately that undermines the individual’s benefit, ultimately resulting in a detrimental outcome (whether subtly or prominently realized/recognized) to the original element that the change was enacted for.

*total sacrifice (committing oneself to something, the result of which is expiration of the physical body to whatever extent aka “death”) does not alter the core of the individual as does self-sacrificing. total sacrifice destroys the known physical incarnation of the core, but not it’s abstract mental integrity.